Sometimes He whispers, sometimes He shouts. No, I am not referring to my husband. He doesn’t shout all that often, unless it is at the TV and sports are on. The “He” that I am talking about is God. When I began my walk with God, and became born anew in Him, I started to learn how to listen. Sometimes I didn’t want to….sometimes I still don’t. The times when I don’t are when I find that he seems to shout the loudest.
Sometimes, the loudest messages come on a whisper. After I got hurt, and was floundering so, wondering what in the world I was going to do with the rest of my life, God whispered. But boy oh boy it was loud and clear. To this day I am trying to fulfill the instructions from that day. He said it could be done. I have put my faith in Him that it will. That is how Ozark Body & Bath came to be a reality from a 10 year old idea. He told me now that I was hurt, that it was time to follow that dream. I am so grateful that He gave me that message that day. I have loved every minute of my soap making journey and my soap making business. I have met some fabulous folks along the way.
Now, I have taken up a few new hobbies. Ones where I can be restful and meditative while I do it. Knitting and spinning for me bring me quiet relaxation. They let me step away from the chronic pain that weaves its way through the fiber of my daily life for a moment and just get into the rhythm of the motion of “doing”. I enjoy being alone in my thoughts with my knitting. As my hands carry the yarn from one stitch from the next, I often think about how God has carried me through life from one hardship to the next. For often times, my life has not been an easy one. I have many times called upon him to carry me when I was to weary to walk even one step further. Never was I refused. I was always placed back on solid ground once again. I think were it not for Him and His grace that sometimes I wouldn’t be here today.
I think that I am here for a reason. I know that my journey is not through. I had thought once, that my purpose in life was gone. But once I got out of the darkness and depression of the aftermath of my life altering injury, I could see that I was so very wrong. God gave me two new sons to raise. He knew I wasn’t done at two children, so he needed to give me a couple more. He gave me special kids. Kids who perhaps might just have needed the kind of person that I am to make them whole once again. I think its working.
I can see great changes in both of them over the years and they have made positive steps towards healing their pasts.
I am glad that one day, long ago, I made the decision to give my life to God. If I hadn’t, I don’t know where I would be today. Or even if I would BE here today. I didn’t get here by myself, that’s for sure. I had help from a way higher power!!